Well I have arrived back home safely in Wiky last night, with my Mother and my sister. I was so happy for my Mother, she was so proud. How often does something like this happen? It was a huge honour to open for Buffy St. Marie as part of imagineNATIVE’s 12th Anniversary. For a majority of the time I think I was in such shock that I didn’t even realise what was really happening or if I even believed it was happening. I’m not going to lie or try to pretend that I was cool, calm and collected the whole time. For the past few months I went through shock, excitement, fear, self doubt, inspiration and back to shock again. Did I enjoy it? Yes!
OH and I forgot to mention that I had sewn my own dress for the event!
So the time finally comes, it is October 21st, I am in Toronto, and I am about to meet Buffy St.Marie at 12pm for my mentorship with her.
There is Buffy smiling at me and Sean Conway and we sit down and talk for our mentorship. What was my first reacion? My first reaction was too take in every word she had to say to us. She taught us about touring, about how to take care of ourselves on the road, and how important sleep, diet and exercise are. She explained to us how to protect ourselves as artists, our instruments, our rights and the rights of our work. I told her my fears and she basically reassured me everything would be fine and told me about square breathing, a type of breathing that changes what’s going on in our bloodcells. Hold for 4 counts, Inhale for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts, exhale for 4. She tells me also to remember the music and what I am expressing and why not to worry so much about the technical things. She reminded me about how natural this is, as it’s something our people have always done, how it’s a part of our way of life. After the mentorship we also got to have dinner with Buffy before her panel dissussion at imagineNATIVE. The whole time I forgot to ask for a picture or an autograph, she was so nice and had so much to share, that I didn’t even think of asking at the time.
So Friday I basically had a whole day to hang out with Buffy
to hear her speak, to get a chance to ask her questions, and, how often does that happen? How many peope would love that opportunity? “How is it this happened to me?” is what I was thinking. Even though Buffy reassured me everything would be okay and taught me to sing from the heart, giving to the audience and that the message is more important than the technical things, I still had a lot of self doubt and nerves knowing that I’m not perfect and wanting to be perfect; a lesson in reflection on how important it is to put ego aside.
I am not ashamed to admit it all hit me before my soundcheck, and I cried. I went backstage to my greenroom and got comfortable, Deandra came to my dressing room and did my makeup for me. It was kinda funny because anyone who knows me, knows I talk alot and I was speechless. Dee noticed this right away and I told her I was nervous and in shock, but it was really comforting to have her there doing my makeup and hair.
I did my soundcheck and went back to my greenroom, closed the door and put the finishing touches on my dress, while listening to the instrumentals for my poems I was going to perform. I just kept running them over and over and over in my head. I think I had the most severe case of performance anxiety in my life. I wanted the audience to feel comfortable before Buffy came out, to feel important too. I think the dress I made was about that. I was thinking about the pride in our people in our pow wow dancers, I chose satin because that’s what we use in our regalia. I thought about Buffy and how she makes us proud to be native and how strong she is. And I went out there and even though I was still a bit nervous, I just kept focusing on the audience and connecting to them.
I felt at home, and hugely grateful, and remembered again why I am doing this. And when I went into the audience after my performance and watched Buffy perform I really felt nothing but grateful and honoured, and was embracing the moment. I was still learning as I watched and listened to her perform. Can I say I just had the most epic beautiful moment of my life? Wow! I am going to go for a one hour jog now instead of to the top of monument hill near Leland Bells art studio. I’m going to go past Lakeshore and jog to Buswah, and starting today, Im going to push myself just a little bit harder healthwise, focus-wise, creative-wise, everything and just remember what I learned from Buffy and keep that inspiration flowing. Wow!
Lena Recollet
Lena Recollet is a singer, spoken word artist and visual artist from Wikwemikong, Ontario. She has performed at The Canadian Festival of Spoken Word, The Harmony Movement Awards for Jessica Yee, the Great Hall, APTN’s Rez Tunes and Planet Indigenous with Red Slam Collective from 2007 – 2010. Lena released her first solo EP in 2011 on National Aboriginal Day with performances at Dundas Square and Augusta House. She has also opened for Kinnie Starr and The Breaking Wind and Blue Diamond at “Living in the Six at Woodland Cultural Centre.”
Lena Recollet was an opening performer for Buffy Sainte-Marie at imagineNATIVE’s The Beat on Oct. 22, 2011 at The Phoenix Concert Theatre. As an emerging artist, Lena had the opportunity to connect with Buffy Sainte-Marie for guidance and advice about the advancement of her career.
Isidra Cruz is a Mexican, Cree, French and African American arts administrator, visual artist and costume designer. She is a graduate of Ryerson University’s Theatre Production program where she received her BFA (H), specializing in theatre administration and costume design and construction. Presently she is working on her installation, Whitewash and saying goodbye to Cake by Donna-Michelle St. Bernard as it heads off to Uganda in September for which Isidra did the set and costume design. Isidra is currently pleased to be working for imagineNATIVE as the Guest Service Coordinator.
Jessica Lea Fleming is of French, Scottish and Wendat descent and grew up on the shores of Georgian Bay, causing acceptable levels of trouble throughout her youth. She has been working in film, television, theatre and communications for several years both locally and globally as a writer, performer and administrator. As the imagineNATIVE Outreach Coordinator, Jessica works on the annual tour, outreach and community relations, visitor services, tourism as well as advertising.


Marcia has been on the imagineNATIVE Executive since 2004, first as the Treasurer, and since 2010 as the Chair of the Board. Marcia is an independent consultant who brings a very broad perspective and inter-disciplinary expertise to Aboriginal affairs, having worked in all regions of the country and with many different stakeholders, including many Aboriginal groups and organizations and departments within the federal and provincial governments.











